Sitting here at my desk, my meager lunch finished and music blaring in my headphones.
As I’ve posted before, my wife and I have been trying the Paleo and/or Keto eating plans. Seems that my body does not care for either one. The highest my blood pressure has been since starting these is 94/62. Basically I should be in a coma. My blood sugar has dropped extremely low, and the A-Fib has returned. So obviously, I am stopping the plan. We did learn somethings we will carry forward such as limiting our carbs to a greater extent. As I also have a cholesterol problem, and keto is known to elevate cholesterol, my doctor also advised me to stop.
Not the best day at work I have to admit. When I was promoted to this position it was for two main projects. Both of which have been pretty much stopped cold. Our city commission has cut about $780K from the city budget for next year, with a chance that it could go deeper still. This means that while my main project is funded for this year, as of October 1st, it may not be. So phase two (not to mention phase three) may not go. And with the issues we are having with phase one, it may get canceled even sooner. If the council cuts the budget ever deeper, there is a possibility that lay offs could occur. So I am rather concerned about my job future.
And of course with all this going on, the Bi-Polar depression is in high swing. The usual visual and auditory hallucinations are going full blast. Like Jackson Browne says in “For A Dancer”;
“It’s like a song playing right in my ear that I can’t sing, I can’t help listening.”
Things move in and out of the peripheral of my vision, thumps and whines in my ear all the time. Hence the headphones. At least then I know what I’m listening to and I can shut out the world for a short time.
Hopefully tonight’s gym time will work it all out. Or I’ll die. Either is acceptable.